HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANDMA...I LOVE AND MISS WE ALL DO..IM SORRY ABOUT THE LAST FEW TIMES WE SAW EACH OTHER...AND IM SORRY ABOUT A LOT OF OTHER THINGS....I KNOW YOUR LOOKING DOWN ON SOME THINGS THAT MAY HURT YOU..OR THAT YOU DON'T APPROVE....AND IM SURE WE ARE DISAPPOINTING...O KNOW WHAT TO SAY...I SOMETIMES FEEL LIKE HOW CAN WE LIVE WITH OUT YOU BUT WE DO EVERYDAY...IM TRYING TO MAKE A BETTER LIFE FOR THIS FAMILY BUT SOMETIMES I JUST FEEL SO WEAK AND HELPLESS..AND THERE ARE SO MANY ROAD BLOCKS..IM TRYING THOUGH...AND LOOK AT CHOPPIE SHES DOING THE BEST SHE CAN ITS NEVER TO LATE I SEE THAT..YOUR ARE AND ALWAYS WILL BE MY BEST FRIEND........GIVE  US STRENGTH,,GIVE US GUIDANCE AND KEEP WATCHING OVER US....O KNOW YOUR UP THERE WITH YOUR MOM DAD BROTHER BAM BAM AND A LOT OF OTHER FAMILY AN FRIENDS....I CAN PICTURE YOU SMILING AND HAVING FUN..PLEASE PROMISE TO ENJOY IT....LOVE TASHA...AKA PEACHES LOL..I MISS YOU LADY MORE THAN YOU CA IMAGINE.

DID YOU KNOW THAT LOVE IS SPECIAL THAT ITS ESSENTIAL TO LIFE EVEN THOUGH MANY BEG TO DIFFER.... I KNOW THE IMPORTANCE OF LOVE...AND I KNOW WHAT HAPPENS WHEN THERE IS A LACK OF IT..OR MAYBE WHEN SOMEONE DOESN'T REALLY KNOW HOW TO EXPRESS IT... I LIVED IN A HOUSEHOLD MY WHOLE LIFE WHERE THE WORD LOVE WAS BARELY USED... I KNOW THE A DAMAGE THAT NOT HEARING THOSE WORDS ENOUGH CAN CAUSE... IVE SEEN IT IVE FELT IT AN IVE LIVED THROUGH AND WILL FOREVER BE A VICTIM OF IT... BUT WHAT I CAN DO WHAT WE CAN DO  IT BECOME PRO LOVE...WE CAN START DOING THIS BY EXPRESSING IT TO OUR FAMILY MEMBERS AND CLOSE FRIENDS AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE...CAUSE THERE'S NOTHING LIKE LOSING A PERSON WITHOUT EXPRESSING YOUR LOVE TO THEM...YOU KNOW HERE TODAY GONE TOMORROW..WE CAN ALSO LEARN HOW TO USE THE WORD LOVE FOR THE  RIGHT REASONS AND STOP MISS USING IT... STOP TELLING A PERSON YOU LOVE THEM IF YOU DON'T OR ESPECIALLY IF YOU YOURSELF DON'T KNOW THE MEANING OF LOVE...MEN SAY I LOVE YOU, TO HAVE SEX...AND WOMEN HAVE SEX TO BE LOVED....WE HAVE THINGS ALL MIXED UP.....WANTING TO BE EXCEPTED IS NOT GROUNDS FOR TELLING SOMEONE YOU LOVE THEM. I UNDERSTAND HOW THIS CAN SO EASILY BE FUCKED UP FOR US..WHEN WE LIVE IN A SOCIETY THAT GUIDES US THROUGH A FUCKED UP MEDIA THAT TEACHES US THINGS BASED HOW MUCH PROFIT THAT THEY CAN GET FROM IT...IVE SEEN TO MAKE LIVES FUCKED UP OVER FALSE LOVE OR WANTING LOVE AND FINDING IT IN THE WRONG PLACES...I HAVE A GUILTY HURT FROM NOT TELLING MY FAMILY HOW MUCH I LOVE THEM..I FEEL LIKE IT COULD OF HELPED BUT ITS NEVER TO LATE TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH YOU LOVE..IF IN FACT YOU TRULY DO.   IM JUST SAYING...IT WAS ON MY MIND HEAVY TONIGHT